Crappy blogger

Well since it's the end of 2012 i thought i may aswell try and update my blog. This year has been pretty difficult, we lost my beloved Grandad. My marriage has had some ups and some very big downs, we let a friend live here for 7 weeks which was nice as he was doing a course down here. The kids did well, Mitchy turned 1 and has been such a delight. Cam turned 4 and he celebrated along with Mitchy getting christened aswell as becoming an aunty for the first time to my little neice Alexandria. Some close friends had babies and some more soon to come. I was trying to lose weight, but lost the battle on that front! So am going to start getting back onto that in the new year, hoping that it will be easier once i have the 2 oldest boys at school. I also want to learn some japanese so i can talk to my SIL in Japanese. I want to keep saving money for our holiday and be organised so that we are all set to go to Hawaii and Disneyland in September school holidays. So i'm going to keep focused on that, that we do have positive things and fun things to look forward to. My Dad will be turning 60 so that's something else to celebrate.

So a quick wrap up of 2012 -

Jan

Feb

March

April

May -16th of May Alexandria Elizabeth Reilly was born, 17th Cameron's 4th Birthday, 20th of May we got Mitchy christened

June

July - Grandad Passed away and we had his funeral which was a lovely tribute to Grandad, everytime i hear bagpipes i will always remember my funny old Grandad

August - Celebrated my 31st birthday, what was supposed to be a great birthday turned to shit because of Milo deciding cleaning the house would be more fun. This beginning months of stress and anxiety, where i was looking at seperating from him.

September - Re-grouped, got some support and relented and put Milo on antidepressants which seemed to make him much more bearable

October

November - Joshy had his 7th birthday at Mango Hill Tavern with some friends from school and he was so excited to have a party with his school friends he had a great time.

December - Joshy finished grade 1 and had an excellent report card and i'm so proud of him.  had christmas at Candices and it was Lexi's first christmas, the boys got very spoilt, and we had a great time with the family including Candice's inlaws, and Yumiko and Tacumi who were here from Japan for christmas.

2013 will start with Joshua starting grade 2 and Cameron starting Prep, i'm both nervous and excited about that and then excited to just have Mitchy at home with me and Milo. Also looking at doing a course to help others with Acquired Brain Injuries and also our big family holiday to Hawaii and Disneyland.

Let's see what's in store for 2013.

Why I'm starting this blog

For a long time I've been dealing with stress, anxiety and depression and I'm going to start working on dealing with it. I'm a 30 year old mum of three wonderful boys who are my world, I'm also married to my husband who has an acquired brain injury from an accident in 2004, so it's a constant daily struggle at times dealing with his short term memory problems and dealing with his moods, frustration and anger. Most of the time things coast along by sometimes we have setbacks that make me feel like here we go again, like it's ground hog day, and a lot of the times it is, due to my husband's incapacity and his limitations. It can create quite a stressful, horrible home life for everyone involved. I want to try and change this constant dynamic, I want a stress less home, I want my relationship with my husband to be less tense. We've been through so much and the way things are going something has to change. I am committed to him as the father of my children and getting constantly frustrated at him serves no one. It doesn't serve me, him, or our children, so I'm going to make a constant effort to deal with things better. That's all for now, but will need this place to share my thoughts and vent my angst here rather than direct it at other's that don't deserve it.